Sunday, May 29, 2011

Finally lost a tooth!!

My son is 8 and it finally happened yesterday morning! He's super excited and I'm excited for him. He's already a cutie pie but now he's even cuter! He is the last of his friends and most classmates to lose a tooth (and he's really been bummed about it since Kindergarten).

He's excited to go back to school on Tuesday to show his teacher. He'll finally get his name on the tooth chart (2nd grade is probably the last year the teacher will keep a chart for tooth losses); yay, he made it just before the end of the school year.

One funny thing though, last night I was talking about the tooth fairy (I usually don't get into that stuff) and he said "the tooth fairy isn't real. The parent just puts money under the pillow and takes the tooth." I said, "ok, guess you won't have any money then," and he said "well maybe the tooth fairy is real." LOL! He's so funny. By the way, he got $5 for losing his first tooth.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Quote of the day

"He who angers you controls you"
--unknown

I saw this quote some time ago on a church sign near my home and it really spoke to me. I came right home and added it to my list of quotes.

I know from firsthand experience how true this is. I think as long as you harbor anger towards someone, they do have some level of control over you and your actions.

I know that I need to work through my anger turned unforgiveness turned bitterness and I am. It just seems as soon as I decided to forgive, the anger kicked into high gear.

Just wanted to share another profound quote with all of you. It might help someone else.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Bloggers Block

I just realized the month has passed me by and I have only posted once..eek! I promised myself I would do better and update at least once a week (okay, so I've failed). I've been busy and honestly haven't had much I wanted to say.

The ex got married a week ago (posted about that in my last post). I worked that day (as I do every Sunday) and really didn't think much of it until...I was calling another AAA club for a member and the representative put me on hold. What was playing on the hold music?!...the song "You are so beautiful," the very song I walked down the aisle on when I married the ex. Weird because I don't think I've heard that song but probably twice since the day of our wedding (May, 1998). I did have a little teary moment and had to get myself to the bathroom after I finished that call.

I also realized he chose to get married just 8 days before the day we got married (whatever). Anyway, the son didn't attend the wedding. He didn't want to go and I wasn't going to force him to. He still chooses not to discuss it. I did stop by the school counselor's office just to ask her to speak with the boy about his feelings.

Anyway, I'm still on a journey to forgive and the fact that the ex has become even more of a deadbeat than he already was is making forgiveness that much harder.

Guess I wasn't blocked after all (LOL); just needed to put fingers to keyboard...

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

The pot and the new wife..

So I found out today that my ex is getting married. I was at work and saw his number on my phone (he never calls me), so I answered it because I thought it might have been an emergency with the boy (not sure why I thought that because the school would call ME first, not him) Anywhoo...he said he was getting married on Sunday. It's weird, but I'm actually relieved he's finally getting married, now he can stop asking me for sex leave me alone.

We've both been single for 9 years, so I guess it was time. The boy doesn't want to attend the wedding and I don't plan to make him do so. He's kind of quiet about the whole thing, which concerns me but he did say he's not happy about the marriage. I'll just keep my mouth shut because the boy doesn't spend much time with the ex anyway.

I'm sure you're wondering why I mentioned a pot in the title. Well, it ties in with the ex. When he divorced me and I moved out, I had NOTHING, so he gave me a pot along with a few other things for the kitchen to get me started. I've had the pot all this time. It's little and good for boiling something quick.

I let something scorch in the pot a few months ago and have not been able to get it clean, yet I've held onto it. I've decided to let go of the pot and today's wedding news gives me the extra push I needed to do so. I'm not sure why I haven't let go of the pot. Maybe the same reason I haven't let go of the anger after 9 years...

Still taking baby steps towards forgiveness.